I’m feeling really quite stuck at the moment. It seems that I am doing everything a bit, but nothing really to my satisfaction. I’m trying to carry on doing a full time job, go to weekly Swedish and Italian lessons, keep things moving in the Labour Movement for Europe, start to play a role in my constituency Labour Party, run a website for Harriet Harman, keep the EBD Euroserver running, manage to design websites for other people in the Labour Party, write this blog (which has suffered in recent months), and find time for a social life as well.
I seem to be helping people out all over the place, but I am starting to ask myself whether this way of living my life can carry on. I’m doing all these things not for what they bring now, but for some intangible benefits that they might bring in the future. I’m trying to keep as many people happy as possible, keep in touch with as many contacts as I can, but I am completely lacking a strategy for the here and now. I’m devoid of some kind of plan for what sorts of things I should be prioritising. Am I making the best use of my time, the best use of my skills, each and every day? The combination of all these things I’m doing is generally not making me happy (in fact, often it’s the contrary), and something has to give. But what? How? Where will I be in 12 months? I really wonder.